Right now I’m really in big trouble and feeling awful… Lord help me, all I want to do is eat cookies and drink many pots of coffee.

I know better than this – I’m a health coach.  A HOLISTIC health coach, for cryin’ out loud! You may be asking why would I have cookies… I do have a secret stash of special dark chocolate covered, delicious morsels, that are for very special occasions to be doled out, one by one. But if I get my hands on that box right now the whole sucker’s gone.

By the way, if you’re a family member reading this don’t even begin to try to think where they’re hidden. Not that I might not share them with you… But I’ll see what kind of mood I’m in if I ever get anything done.

(At this point, I’ve procrastinated so much I actually wrote this weeks ago.)

I am so stuck I am going around in circles doing nothing. I do a load of laundry here, scrub a bathroom section there (hey – I just noticed the grout really needs cleaning – why didn’t I see that before?), wash a few dishes and straighten up the kitchen again… Grab another snack. What is going on?

As I make a cup of tea (at least its good organic chamomile tea: I’m barely hanging on, white knuckled here) I am definitely heading straight to my office desk area and am going to buckle down!  Great sigh…

What makes the human brain so convoluted and tend towards putting off for later, again, when it doesn’t know what to do? The overwhelm comes, and for me, it’s paralyzing.  I’ve taken lots of courses and have a myriad of tools, and yet putting them all together in the right order is eluding me so much that I don’t know where to begin.  So… I don’t begin.

The double-edged sword of my incredibly modern virtual office/iPhone, Facebook, the  vast internet and all the thousands of things I have in my computer – saved of course to read someday – creates a massive dilemma.   It’s all so great and amazingly helpful, I don’t know how I lived without it before… and yet it is such a curse that causes me to be completely scattered and unfocused. There is just too much information!!!

My brain is going to self-destruct…

I am dunking my teabag up-and-down, up-and-down, now… but wait – what about a tasty and nutritious piece of toasted Ezekiel raisin bread? How ’bout I pour a nice big tall glass of spring water with Braggs wonderful apple cider vinegar that has the mother-load in it, for some energy? I can take it downstairs to my office with me…

What? WHAT??!! … You think I’m just Procrastinating again?!

Yup.  Done them all.  Actually today.

Yes Lord, please help me.